2012 is coming to an end…and as usual the starting/ending of a year means hearing news about the passing of people in my life. I get in my emo mode whenever I hear about the passing of someone I used know. It just put things back into perspective for me…my life, the people I know, the ones I love. I question my priorities in life when I hear news like that and I never will know how to react appropriately to those news.
2012 is a year of crazy ups and downs, life is really a bitch like what they say. It has its sweet and loving moments but there were times where I got into the worst situations only to be faced with a “Bitch please, you think that’s all you’re gonna get? Wait till you see what’s next” slapped in my face. I’ve learnt so much this year in all areas and I’m bringing all that I’ve learnt in my transition to adulthood.
I’ve always believed that I am where I am to make a difference and with that in mind, I would as much as I can to make that difference significant in all I do, wherever I do it.
Had to take a crash course to survive – discouragement, disappointment, frustration, depression, loneliness – these few guys were living rent free in my head for months for longer than expected. During the troubled times, I was tested, many times and it was tough. My cake batter foamed and fluffed but sunk very quickly, yet I had no choice but to buck up and finish baking the cake. I I learnt things I never did about the people around me – most things encouraging even though there were some things that I was disappointed to know. I’m very thankful I have God to count on especially in those crazy moments, I know what I went through has helped shape me to become a stronger person.
Flashback of some tips in life I’ve picked up in the past few months (just for the sake of keeping track of my life)
*Flash* It is necessary to stand up and fight for yourself because you’re the only one who could and would do that.
*Flash* Being nice may sometimes be seen as being weak and so it’s important to follow the rules, play by the book and accept what comes your way.
*Flash* Being loud(er) doesn’t mean you’re right and hearing nothing doesn’t mean your wrongs are not echoing all over the room.
*Flash* Self pity is absolutely irritating and should be avoided/ignored at all cause.
*Flash* Being focused on what matters most is more important – filter and roll, rinse and repeat.
*Flash* Snakes are on the plane, in your garden, on the loose. Ain’t nobody got time for that.
*Flash* Set goals that are achievable not just to achieve them but to surpass them.
*Flash* Be neutral = mediocre, be extreme = surprise yourself, blow your mind.
*Flash* Not one person is truly replaceable, every single person brings different values to an experience. Never take anyone in your life for granted.
*Flash* Fixing starts from within. Before all things, love and work on yourself first.
This is something I saw from Rihanna’s Instagram that I wholeheartedly agree. I may not agree with her image as a personality but this line got me writing pass my 3rd sentence in this blog post.
In all its good and horrible times, I’m thankful for 2012. I really am. I’m happy I’m alive, I have a great family, an amazing guy who loves me for who I am, really awesome friends and a lot to look forward to in life.